And it all comes down to

Wanderlust. Mmmm yeah. There are a couple of things looking up in my life; the travels (California, maybe NY in July, Europe smorsgasbord over summer), the friends (you know who you are), the house (can you say sofa? w00t! finally) and the car (sadly, the demise of Horus is greatly overshadowed by the advent of Lucky. wheeeee). and of course Pete. Need I say more bub?

On the downside, the recap of droll and otherwise bothersome things gets longer.

1) Health. My biggest bugabear to boot. Mutated gastrobug that’s doing a Titanic (going on and on and on). Insomnia that’s still so unproductive (try panicking about exams at 3.45 in the morning, after an 8 hour procrastination of trying to go to bed, so that exam prep can actually be done). Medicine that I keep losing as a result of trying to have a life. Flaky, cracking, weepings scars in the head that itch, and we all know how Sondha likes to itch. More surgery on the horizon (lalalala… leaving on a jet plane… lalalala i can’t hear you). Freaky talk of more radiation therapy. Exhaustion. Plain exhaustion.

2) Academics. The highs are high and the lows are low eh. I need a time turner or ten. And brains by the bucket. *cough*psycholingistics*cough*. Some subjects have psycho- as a prefix for a reason.

3) Dramas. oh the dramas. why dost thou embrace me at sleepless o’clock and envelope me in your velvet arms. Just leave well alone for a sec.

4) Health

5) Academics

6) Health

7) Health

I’ll stop blubbering now and go eat some chocolate. And try for the next 10 hours to stay awake, so that I can spend the 8 after that trying to fall asleep.

 

wise words

my ass… =) but just a warning ahead: this might be too much of an overshare.
I’m a tad worried about my internal state. I think I shocked alot of people by getting angry during physiol on wednesday, but then again the issue in question was shocking. I’m not going to even attempt to tackle that issue until a later date, simply because it incapacitates me with anger.

but internal state. I’m just having a whinge here cuz it’s the internet, but in the past month I have had:

• mucho stomach problems. like severely.
• severe reactions to anything that bites me. not good in midge season. itchy for days, bleeding and each swollen to at least the size of an australian 50cent. of which i currently have 12 in different locations on my body.
• sick migranes
• a 17 day flux, which has just started again (tmi, i know, but you were warned)
• alternating bouts of extreme hunger, and nausea
• a wrist so weak i can scarcely handle the plates at work
• insane moods. insane.

so yes I’m worried. coupled with the medications that I’m on, and the things I need to do when I go home, the prognosis is not good. In fact, the only thing worse than this prognosis is the one for my exams. bah.